 I started the spiritual search for truth very consciously at the age of five. I was the only one in my family to walk a mile to church, mainly so I could sing and listen to the music. Growing up in the backwoods of Maine, I was not exposed to opera, classical, contemporary, or any other kind of music, other than what I occasionally heard on the radio, my parents’ old record albums, and my daddy’s guitar (which I learned to play). The music that made the biggest impact on my life was the sounds of nature…. the wind in the trees, the crickets and frogs, each little bird, and a symphony of other natural hosts. Each had their own song and they all blended together with a beautiful melody that soothed my soul. Music was the only time I could feel the presence of the Divine and know that all would be all right in my then troubled world.
I grew up having great visionary experiences and interactions with nature (what I now know to be Source Consciousness) only to be told by the church that it was the work of the devil trying to seduce me into something I did not understand. I left the church, went to other religious institutions only to get the same feedback. I turned my back on their God, and felt alone and empty. By now I was married, with children, and feeling depressed with a longing I could not explain, yet made my heart ache.
Over the years, I traveled throughout the United States and abroad to various cultures and tribes and discovered that they lived in harmony with their spirituality, visions, and music. They sang with and to Nature and danced their spirits awake. My soul came alive again. I was adopted into a Native American tribe and taught many lessons by my “father” Red Eagle. When he died, it was if my world had shattered and all I had was the deep knowing and teachings he had left with me.
I met many good teachers as well as false prophets along the path to awakening, yet nothing seemed to fill the ache and longing to belong somewhere again. I was only having moments of experiencing Oneness Consciousness when singing or listening to music, which of course, only magnified the desire for more and longer moments!
In June of 1997, after going through a divorce, moving my home and private practice in transpersonal psychology to another town, someone sent me an article and tape on Brother Charles and his music for meditation. I listened and started having the visionary experiences and joyful feelings in my heart again. Music was alive again in my life! I continued for the next seven years to order tapes and CDs created by now Master Charles not knowing anything about him and his Synchronicity Organization. All I knew was that I loved meditating to the music, and was witnessing profound shifts in the people I played it for in my office.
In November, 2004, I had found myself crying once again from the depths of my soul for a spiritual guide, teacher, anyone that could help me. I was experiencing workshop and conference burnout and felt absolutely stuck in my spiritual growth. The day after Thanksgiving, I awoke with a knowing that I had to go to my office and use a Sounds of Source soundtrack as background music to record a guided meditation CD for my clients. I had been trying to make this CD using various other kinds of music, to no avail for almost two years. I called my engineer, he met me at my office with all his equipment (bless him), put the headphones on and within an hour it was done, with no script, no flaws, only allowing the information to flow through me as the hollow bone.
When I finished, I realized that I did not have permission to use the music, and called the 800 number on the CD thinking no one would be there, it was probably a "fly by night company", etc. Much to my surprise, Sydney answered the phone, got me to sign up for Recognitions (I only did it because I was afraid I wouldn’t get permission to use the music otherwise. Besides, I was already a certified meditation teacher through another organization.) I decided to give it a try and found my whole world upside down in a flash. Within two weeks I wasn’t peaceful at all! I called back to find out what kind of music this was, and was promptly passed onto the President of Synchronicity Foundation, Alan, who explained to me what was occurring was a deep clearing of old data that was stored in my psyche. After spending some time talking with him, he suggested I think about the possibility of mentoring with Master Charles (whom I didn’t know anything about).
Fast forward, I went through the experience of filling out the forms requested (which sent me on another deep cathartic experience), and started mentoring with Master Charles in March, 2005. The mystical experiences started happening again, and now I finally had someone who could help me to understand what they meant, and where I was in my journey! The peace of mind and understanding he helped me to gain was HUGE. The healing salve he has poured into my wounded heart, mind, and soul from previous dramas and traumas has given me a resting place to just BE. There has been no greater healing in my life to date.
I arrived in May, 2005 for a Mastery Retreat only to discover home. It was as if I had arrived on another planet, where all the inhabitants resonated in a world I had experienced only as my own for most of my life! Not to mention all the sounds and visions of nature greeting me once again! Music was alive at all levels again for me!
As I continue to mentor with Master Charles and use his meditation music, I am unfolding in a way I would not have believed possible in the past. The biggest difference for me to date is that I am no longer my own worst enemy, even though I maintain my commitment to being uncompromisingly honest with myself. My own self-love and acceptance for where I am, what I am, and who I am, continues to evolve as I consciously witness this unfoldment. The surprising “ripple” effect has been that my once estranged family has found more acceptance with me, even if they do not understand anything about my spirituality.
It hasn’t always been easy mentoring with Master Charles, yet it has been Sourcefully truthful. I am now in the presence of an authentic Master, who delivers just the medicine I need at the moment I require it, in a way that allows me to unfold and evolve with love. I am eternally grateful for it all, and especially for my life, which can now be celebrated! Thank you, Master Charles and all those at Synchronicity, whether visiting or living there, who have welcomed me home and given me a safe place to Sourcefully BE. |
